Chronic pain · Uncategorized

Not sure where to start


Chronic Pain Bites Elephant Balls and My Life
This is just a place for me to vent about my life. In case something happens to me I want my family to know my deepest thoughts. I am married, we have mine yours and ours children. Our family dynamics are crazy. I have a disease called DISH and I suffer from chronic pain from it. I have had so many operations that I just stopped counting. I try to live each day as my last. Never look back, keep on . 
Just Me
I am having a hard time dealing. As I am sure my husband and kids are too. I have a disease called DISH (diffuse idiopathic skeletal hyperostosis) . First off < I do not want the” Get well’s , Hope you feel better or the pity. That is not the purpose of this story. . I have suffered with chronic pain for about 12 years. It makes you crazy, insane even. One has to learn different coping mechanisms( lots of them). Me, I read, I like to make people laugh, I like to pretend that I am something that I am not, Like a character in a book. I always put on a fake smile and try to make others feel good about themselves .
So DISH is incurable.
Just some facts~ Diffuse idiopathic skeletal hyperostosis (DISH) is considered a form of degenerative arthritis or osteoarthritis. However, DISH is characterized by unique, flowing calcification along the sides of the contiguous vertebrae of the spine. And, very unlike typical degenerative arthritis, it’s also commonly associated with inflammation (tendinitis) and calcification of tendons at their attachments points to bone. This can lead to the formation of bone spurs, such as heel spurs. In fact, heel spurs are common among
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Chronic pain · Uncategorized


Having a chronic illness and chronic pain is so hard to deal with. Not only for the patient but also for the family around them, I like to call them the silent victims. I decided to start this blog or just writing in general because I have so much going on in my mind and I just don’t know how to cope with it.  Currently I’m in this situation where I can’t breathe unless I lay down.  Granted I’m lucky to be alive but it’s very difficult taking care of three kids,a husband, and a dog from a laying down position. Shit I can’t even take care of myself. Having chronic illness and chronic pain is there a difficult for the people around me to understand because sometimes I don’t even understand it myself. A lot of times I wonder what I did to deserve what is going on with my body and I just think why me.  A lot of time people around me just don’t want to take the time to learn about my issues which are aplenty.  As I’m sitting here knitting a scarf ,which is so unlike me, I am trying to figure out a way to get better faster. It seems like the last 10 years of my life I have all that about how to get better faster.